My dream ended when I was born. Although I never knew it then, I just held on to something that would never come to pass. Dreams really do exist. But in the morning when you wake up, they are remembered just as a dream. That is what happened to me.
I always have the dream to dance like a beautiful ballerina twirling around and around and hearing people applaud1 for me. When I was young, I would twirling around and around in the fields of wildflowers that grew in my backyard2. For hours I would dance as if people were watching me. I would dance so fast that I would forget where I was, until I would hear sounds that reminded me of where I really was. I thought that if I twirled faster everything would disappear and I would wake up in a new place. Reality woke me up when I heard a voice saying, "I don't know why you bother trying to dance. Ballerinas are pretty, slender3 little girls. Besides, you don't have the talent to even be a ballerina." I remember how those words paralyzed4 every feeling in my body. I feel to the ground and wept5 for hours.
We lived in the country by a nearby lake and I would sometimes go there to hide. My parents were never home anyway and I did not like to be at home where I could hear the walls talking of pain. When they were home, my mother just yelled6 and criticized7 because nothing was ever perfect in her life. She dreamed of a different life but ended up living in a country far away from the city where she believed her dreams would have come true.
I enjoyed hanging out by the water. I would sit there for hours and stare at my reflection8. There I was, looked nothing like a pretty ballerina dancer. Reflections9 don't lie. Once the waves would come, my reflection was gone. Washed away just like my dream to dance. I sat there staring at the water, hoping that my reflection would reappear and be different.
As I grew older, I began to realize that the reason my dream was even born in the first place, was because it was something that was inside of me. The dream I had was never nurtured10 and cared for, so it slowly died. It's not that I wanted it to die, but I allowed it to die the day I started listening to the words, "You can't do it." When I finally woke up from many years of dreaming, I realized that you can't settle11 for dancing in the wildflowers, you have to move on to the platform. I still go to the lake sometimes and sit there. Looking at my reflection is different now too. When I was young, I looked at how others saw me, now that I am older and wiser; I look at how God sees me.
1 applaud [əˈplɔ:d] 第6级 | |
vt.鼓掌欢迎,赞同;vi.鼓掌欢迎,欢呼 | |
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2 backyard [ˌbækˈjɑ:d] 第4级 | |
n.后院,后庭 | |
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3 slender [ˈslendə(r)] 第5级 | |
adj.苗条的,修长的;微薄的,微弱的 | |
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4 paralyzed ['pærəlaɪzd] 第6级 | |
adj.瘫痪的 | |
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5 wept [wept] 第4级 | |
(通常因悲伤)哭泣( weep的过去式和过去分词 ); 流泪; 悲哀; 哀悼 | |
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6 yelled [jeld] 第6级 | |
v.叫喊,号叫,叫着说( yell的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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7 criticized [ˈkritisaizd] 第5级 | |
vt.批评(criticize的过去式)v.评论,批评( criticize的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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8 reflection [rɪˈflekʃn] 第5级 | |
n.映象,倒影;反射;反映;非议;深思 | |
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9 reflections [rɪ'flekʃənz] 第5级 | |
反映( reflection的名词复数 ); (关于某课题的)思考; (声、光、热等的)反射; 映像 | |
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