智慧之歌

穆旦

I have reached illusion's end

我已走到了幻想底尽头，

In this grove¹ of falling leaves,

这是一片落叶飘零的树林，

Each leaf a signal of past joy,

每一片叶子标记着一种欢喜，

Drifting sere² within my heart.

现在都枯黄地堆积在内心。

Some were loves of youthful days?

有一种欢喜是青春的爱情，

Blazing meteors in a distant sky,

那是遥远天边的灿烂的流星，

Extinguished , vanished without trace,

有的不知去向，永远消逝了，

Or dropped before me , stiff and cold as ice.

有的落在脚前，冰冷而僵硬。

Some were boisterous³ friendships,

另一种欢喜是喧腾的友谊，

Fullblown blossoms , innocend of coming fall.

茂盛的花不知道还有秋季，

Society dammed the pulsing blood,

社会的格局代替了血的沸腾，

Life cast molten passion in reality's shell.

生活的冷风把热情铸为实际。

Another joy , the spell of high ideals,

另一种欢喜是迷人的理想，

Drew me through many a twisting mile of thorn.

它使我在荆棘之途走得够远，

To suffer for ideals is no pain;

为理想而痛苦并不可怕，

But oh ,to see them mocked and scorned!

可怕的是看它终于成笑谈。

Now nothing remains⁴ but remorse⁵?

只有痛苦还在，它是日常生活

Daily punishment for past pride.

每天在惩罚自己过去的傲慢，

When the glory of the sky stands condemned⁶,

那绚烂的天空都受到谴责，

In this wasteland, what colour survive?

还有什么彩色留在这片荒原？

There is one tree that stands alone intact,

但惟有一棵智慧之树不凋，

It thrives , I know , on my suffering's lifeblood.

我知道它以我的苦汁为营养，

Its greenshade mocks me ruthlessly!

它的碧绿是对我无情的嘲弄，

O wisdom tree ! I curse your every growing bud.

我诅咒它每一片叶的滋长。