As a child ,I felt I was an ugly duckling .you know,the kid no one would play with.Who was considered odd.Too skinny .Did nothing athletic¹.My few friends and I constituted the outcasts at my grade school.

儿时，我总觉得自己是只丑小鸭。没有小孩喜欢和我玩，他们觉得我性格怪癖，长得瘦骨嶙峋，又不爱运动。我和仅有的几个朋友都是被遗弃的对象。

Later,as I began to develop a figure and a smile,I still never could shake the feeling that I was substandard.Ehen the prettier girl got the guy,I figured that was only fair-she deserved to be happy.I didn't.

When a guy did give me some attention,I figured he was doing me a favor,so I reciprocated² obsessively³ until he got tired of me.Even when I looked in the mirror and saw something pleasant looking back at me ,I figured it was a fluke.

后来，我开始越长越漂亮，便时常面带微笑但仍摆脱不了自卑的阴影。我认为，一个更漂亮的女孩有男朋友是很自然的事--她应该享受幸福。而这种幸福并不属于我。

Yrear passed,and I went through some bad realationships,up-and down weight loss,extreme self-hatred .Then there came a time when I was living in England,the land of "everyone looks perfect".In my own contrariant way,I decided⁴ to differentiate⁵ myself.

每当有男生注意我时，我就觉得是出于同情，因此，对他敷衍搪塞，直到他厌倦我为止。即使是在照镜子时发现自己长得还可以，我也会把这纯粹当做偶然。之后的数年，我几经感情的失败反复地减肥甚至极端仇视自己。后来，我开始在洛杉矶生活，这是一个“人人完美”的地方。逆向思维促使我下决心改变自己。

I stopped coloring my hair and let all the gray show, I stopped wearing makeup⁶.I stopped wearing clothes that I thought would make me look attactive to men.For about two years,I stripped away all the disguises I'd been using and tried to show only myself.

我不再小染发，让灰白头发全露出来也不再化妆，不穿吸引男性注意的衣服。三年里，我蜕掉了所有的伪饰，尽力展现真我。

And I discovered something.I am beautiful.

此时，我发现自己很漂亮。

When I couldn't rely on my externals to communicate my beauty,I had to turn to internals.I think of internals as spiritual qualities.These qualities are linked to qualities such as love ,patience,caring,listening,fun-loving,joy,creativity,peace,since these are spiritual qualitiles,each of us has access to them wherever and wherever we are.

当美丽不能凭借外表来传达，我转而重视内在美。我认为，内在美是一种精神品质。这些品质与爱心、耐心、体贴、倾听、欢乐、愉悦、创造力以及平和等品性息息相关。这些精神品质，人人都可拥有不管你是谁也不论你身在何方。

And what was fun to realize is that no one has any more or less of these qualities.I had been thinking of myself as not having enough beauty ,as being deprived somehow.But when I began to express those spiritual qualities,beauty became natural and effortless.I don't think you can help being beautiful when you're being loving or when you're at peace,when you're haveing fun or exprressing creativity.

认识到这些品质对每个人都一视同仁是很有趣的。我曾认为自己不够漂亮，感觉被剥夺了一般。但当我开始外传这些精神品质时，我发现美是如此自然毫不造作，当你满怀爱心或心态平和，或纵情玩乐，或发挥创造力时，美便自然流露出来。

I could see then that worrying about my appearance and how it rated compared to that of others was a form of self-obsession.Expressing spiritaul qualities was selfless,because it's about expressing Soul.

我才发现，和他人竞比外表之美是一种自恋。而展现精神品质是无私的，因为那是灵魂的展示。

I know I was making progress when one day,I seek in the network,a man approached me and just appreciated how at peace and pretty I looked.I really felt like one of the "beautiful people "in my own way.

我知道自己正在逐渐进步。有一天，当我在公园读书，俯瞰大海时，一位男士走到我身旁，欣赏我的宁静之美。我真切地觉得自己在特有的方式向“美丽的人”转变。

These days,I want to marry .I'm back to coloring my hair and wearing makeup.But that's not what makes me feel beautiful.the smile on someone else's face shining back at me gives me the glow of beauty ,and I feel blessed..

这些日子，我又移居新英格兰重新染发化起妆来，但使我感觉美丽、光彩照人的不是这些，而是路人投来的微笑让我陶醉其中。

you are beautiful,too .so are all the people around you.when you see spiritually,the world becomes a place of beauty.

你也很美，你周围的人都很美。当你用心观察这个世界时，它便是美丽的家园。